So this year, I decided….I have had enough of it and I need a break.
I wanted to travel, meet new people and somehow get my shit together.
Not a lot of people realize, how much pressure we put on young doctors and medical students and I’ve just had enough of all the bullshit and pressure.
Soooo…my „break“ means 3 months in Switzerland and 3 months in USA (if I get the funding and visa), however, those are still internships, so it is a break from my daily routine, rather than break from the school, I guess.
I’ve been feeling a lot of pressure for a couple of years now. Have you ever had a feeling like someone is standing on your chest and no matter how hard you try to breathe, you just can’t? Well, I’ve had this feeling for probably a decade now, and I feel like it is finally time for me to exhale. I feel like I finally deserve it. Unfortunately, I am one of those people who seem pretty extroverted and open, but I am not. My life has been a huge old mess and I have so many secrets, that I cannot go on like this anymore. I just want to take a break and finally be myself. I want to be proud of who I am. I want to feel love. I want to just be myself.
I want to be at peace…